A SOLILOQUY

Lyfe, you’re a freak. You are such a treacherous raving freak!!
What the f…??? You’ve kicked me really bad this time! knocked the very wind out of me !
Hilarious, ya, ya…I admit, it’s a laughable situation, if only it weren’t so painful. Are you smirking at me now? lyfe, u are a tyrant teacher!
Damn, even I’m kind of tickled at how pathetically I screw-up, and how aptly you’ve always dish it out to me. Just when I’m riding high on a stupid albeit intoxicating drug, you slip in and Oooooof!! Kick me hard in my stomach, and there….. I’m back in reality! There’s a teeny-weeny part of me, which has floated out of my head and its looking, pointing at me and cracking up with giggles at how smartly I’ve been slapped in the face!!
But thanks, lyfe, for always providing the strength to laugh at myself….…..

You had me at hello, you know……
The second I emerged from mum’s womb, you had me. Hook, line and sinker. I smiled at you, reveled in you, wasn’t I an eager little child ? I know you loved me, lyfe, you must’ve held my dimpled arms and we might’ve lolled, gurgled, garbled and gulped together in those oblivious days. Hmm, yeah, I’m sure we did that, you and I…

You and I…….. it's been quite a ride, has'nt it?

Our early years were the time when you were the kindest to me. You know me rather well, don’t you? I fancied for a while there I knew you too, understood what you are all about. But crazy that you are, you keep changing yourself and eluding me!! you never stayed the same?!!! But its okay, that’s your charm, even I know you a bit by now, after all, we had years and years, side by side.

I feel I’ve been in love with you forever, lyfe, even when I was very young and brash. I mistreated you, I told you many times that I hated you. I overlooked and trampled on the gifts you showered on me, for I was naïve. There were times when I was afraid of facing you, I knew you were mad at me, so I turned my back on you. There were times when you turned your back on me too. Come on, you’ve done that! You’ve left me high n dry in the past. You’ve been mean to me too, you’ve pushed me, made me trip and fall down, and then left me to pull myself intact and stand all over again. But I admit you always got back to me when i was tired and beaten. You see, even u can’t do without me, can you?

Hand in hand, we’ve talked the talk, walked the walk, been there, done that…….I ran ahead of you sometimes, but you always caught-up with me. I ran, and ran. Zigzagged, stumbled, cried bitter tears wiped them away, laughed mirthfully, loved brazenly, screamed silently, gave-up, ran again….you kept your steady pace, and always caught-up with me. You’ve lost sight of me, but you never gave up on me, lyfe. And that’s why I’ll forever come back to You.

We’re good together, we're working it out. We’re getting there….You and I…..
You and I......