Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Hello, Again....Hello...

Hmm, my long absence was beginning to get to me! I hate these unavoidable breaks, it’s been months since my last post. Life’s been twirling’ us on its toes….a shift of place, shaping-up my new home, getting the feel of this new town, its people, going over the entire process of forgetting old mates, making new friends and fitting in……the damn heat is intolerable, even inspiration has been evading me!
Finally, it’s good to be bloggin’ again.

I found my baby-girl howling when I reached her play-school to pick her up today. Oh, let me say one thing about my little two and a half year old bundle of joy – she is the ultimate drama-queen! And she believes howling and creating cacophony is the best, fastest and easiest method of getting your way. Sympathies reached out to the poor, harassed teacher. She was trying hard to console my little brat, who was obviously getting a kick out of the fuss!!
Well, the reason of the outburst was that I was out wrapping-up chores and was about fifteen-minutes late in getting to school, so she was the only kid left in the class.
Sanjana comes running up to me and sobs in utter consternation (these tots today are very well-equipped in expressions), “ mommy, all my friends have gone !”

I couldn’t help but ruefully smile at her distress. I wanted to tell her, “ all of mommy’s friends have gone too !” Woe! Such is life !! So simple the world is for sanjana - mamma, papa, friends……..how complicated it is for us.

I remember the time when we were children and it was so easy to make friends. How innocently trivial the qualifications were, how differently we gauged people. Hell, who gauged??? Just spill your name n get playin’, that’s all!! And how awesome those friends were, we related on such basic terms.

I find it gets loopy as we grow older. It’s hard to make friends without selfish reasons. We’re friendly with our neighbor because we might need help suddenly sometime. We’re friendly at work simply because its easer to be part of a gang. We have shopping-buddies, pool-buddies, squash-buddies, kitty-friends……we guard our secrets, we watch our words, we speak politely, we behave pristinely. Where are those friends we used to be maniacs with, fought with, shared our joys, sorrows, fears, crushes, everything!! Those days without guile, without malice, without ulterior motives…and those buds that lived those years with me…..how I miss them all! like happy shadows they sailed with me, my friends they were…..

Neil Diamond must’ve felt like me when he sang, “ shadow, when I was young, I used to call your name, when no one else would come, shadow u always came
Even today my deepest bond is with pals from childhood. Like me, even they’re caught-up in adulthood, eking-out in this mad, mad world. I’ve made many friends since them, but over the years, its become a mechanical process more than bonding. Faces, names come to my mind as I write this, people swim across from the sea of memories in my head. People come, they go, reality dwindles, and ghosts become reality. Things change and we change with things, but some things never do. Friendships from our obliviously gleeful childhood remain just that…static in time, like clippings from an old movie.

8 comments:

  1. lovely nostalgic piece. you have the gift of the written word. even my closest friends are childhood friends. if one didnt have a few people around whom you can cast off your pretensions, life would truly be a burden!

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  2. u have stated what everyone feels in such plain n factual way.. but there is one thing i wud like to add.. there are some ppl who cant make frens for the sake of selfishness.. n then they r the ones left out.. marked as snobbish... life is really weird..

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  3. U alwys leave me speechless with ur words.... and the feeling lasts for quite some time.....

    Amazing post aftr such a loooong time.... As i continued reading, delved into nostalgia simltnsly.... u made my day.... :)

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  4. Lovely emotional post...simply put but very touchy..even i was working on my next post for my childhood friends..
    so dont know maybe my post will be influenced by your post coz this is exactly what i wanted to say..."People come, they go, reality dwindles, and ghosts become reality."

    good work..keep writing!

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  5. From JK Rowling at the Harvard University Graduation 2008


    If you choose to use your status and influence to raise your voice on behalf of those who have no voice; if you choose to identify not only with the powerful, but with the powerless; if you retain the ability to imagine yourself into the lives of those who do not have your advantages, then it will not only be your proud families who celebrate your existence, but thousands and millions of people whose reality you have helped transform for the better. We do not need magic to change the world, we carry all the power we need inside ourselves already: we have the power to imagine better.

    I am nearly finished. I have one last hope for you, which is something that I already had at 21. The friends with whom I sat on graduation day have been my friends for life. They are my children's godparents, the people to whom I've been able to turn in times of trouble, friends who have been kind enough not to sue me when I've used their names for Death Eaters. At our graduation we were bound by enormous affection, by our shared experience of a time that could never come again, and, of course, by the knowledge that we held certain photographic evidence that would be exceptionally valuable if any of us ran for Prime Minister.

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  6. so finally the kids influence in r life and thoughts is showing up !! u miss ur childhood frens 'coz u r living ur childhood wid sanjana... don u think these heavy nostalgic feelings give u pleasure for u have treasured such lovely friends in ur heart !! this piece of writing really churned the silent pool of childhood relations in me and finally i had jus a smile on my face... for all the gud times revised !!!
    keep up the job. All thanx to SANJANA for this blog !!

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  7. well, childhood always brings innocence, simplicity and a sense of joy and excitement with it! Thanks for your post, for once i recalled my childhood friends!

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